Bad Day

I'm having a bad day. I shouldn't let people bother me so much, but little stuff just adds up over the course of the day and I want to blow. I believe it's important to be happy and optimistic when you're fighting an illness. Stress makes it more difficult for your body to fight disease. However, I have certain expectations that I shouldn't have, but that still hang around me and create problems. I expect people to be competent. I expect people to be polite. I expect people to be considerate of my feelings, but people do what they do because of their own agreements and understandings of the world and what is "right" behavior from their own perspective. I have to try to remember that -- and don't take anything personally.

Several things happened this morning that have pushed me to the brink. Finally, I got some lunch and indulged in a diet coke. That caffeine can make me feel so much better. That's one nice thing about cutting back on caffeine -- when you do drink it, you really get a strong effect (same w/ beer!)

I didn't go to yoga this weekend. My husband and I didn't feel like interrrupting our weekend "getting things done" routine to go to yoga -- even though it makes us both feel great. Maybe you know what I mean? I just find that it's difficult to spend time in the gym on the weekends since that's my completely free time. I totally enjoy going to the gym on the weekdays though. I definitely don't go on Saturday, but it would be nice to have a routine for Sunday that I *want* to do. I haven't done all that well w/ the new lifting routine. I only listed once last week. This week I'm on track to lift twice and get to the gym 4 times if all goes well.

I need to make an appointment to see my nephrologist in the next 2 months, but I just don't want to make the call. I guess I don't really want to know my latest numbers. I feel good lately. Presumably that's because of the aranesp shots and the iron infusions. It'd be nice to know how long those infusions are supposed to last. I'll do the Scarlett thing for now and "think about it tomorrow" -- the drs appt, I mean.